Here's to the nights we felt alive

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-11-12T19:48:00

2006-11-13T00:48:40Z

This weekend was horrible for me
I do not want to go back to central for very long time

I want to think that some things that are said to me dont hurt
but it does
i need to get out of here
and be on my own for a weekend

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-10-27T15:02:00

2006-10-27T15:04:26Z

Today is my Birthday
I cant wait until tonight,
it is going to be so much fun!
:)

standing in line to see the shore line and there's a light on

2006-09-25T00:46:24Z

Despite the cold and all the rain, this was a great weekend!
Peter Frampton on friday
champagne, movies and popcorn on saturday
then relaxing and going to work today.

it was almost perfect.

you make it hard to be faithful, with lips of an angel

2006-08-24T16:26:07Z

Wow, last night was crazy, but it goes in the top 3 for best drinking nights this summer.
My new favorite drink is whiskey sour, thanks to KT and Hitch
They were rough this morning though
and now I am at school and waiting between classes sucks

Next year I am gong to Wayne and I want to get an apartment

So if anyone is interested, let me know

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-08-23T00:09:00

2006-08-23T04:11:18Z

Its hard to believe that Joe leaves tomorrow and he is not coming back...
this is the first summer where we hung out and had fun together

oh yeah, tonight is the first night I turned down drinking
im proud
:)

her faith was strong, but you needed proof

2006-08-20T04:02:35Z

Last night was probably the most fun I have had in a week

nothing beats slow dancing to Johnny Cash and Jack Johnson
or playing circle of death with friends

but all good things must come to an end
and everyone is back at school

But now I have more important things to concentrate on
my first class is monday at 2
intermediate algerbra
And now I know that I will do good at school

It is the greatest thing, to be able to talk about everything with the person you love and who loves you
and that is what made tonight fun, even though going out with my family sucked

The only thing I learned this summer is that true friends stick with you forever
and I need to leaern to relax more
it's something to work on...

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-07-17T20:18:00

2006-07-18T00:23:49Z

I cant believe I fucked up like that
my dad wont even talk to me and my mom hates me now more than ever
everyone is pissed off about something they all have done at some point
i fell like shit now and i want to do it again

hold on little girl
show me what he's done to you
stand up little girl
a broken heart cant be that bad

this is how a heart breaks

2006-06-18T18:31:55Z

Last night was a great night
Im not sure why, but im still smiling

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-06-14T13:49:00

2006-06-14T17:50:37Z

I got a job today!
$5.15 an hour...

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-04-21T00:12:00

2006-04-21T04:13:04Z

It was 420 and I didnt smoke at all

Im not sure wether to be proud or disappointed
today was a day when I really needed it...

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-04-06T21:35:00

2006-04-07T01:35:59Z

http://www.tiffanydesigns.com/CollectionItem.asp?ID=2354

my prom dress

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-03-08T22:43:00

2006-03-09T03:43:24Z

Some people need to not be so 2-faced.

thats all im going to say...

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-02-19T10:39:00

2006-02-19T15:40:31Z

I hate being held captive
I love when my friends come visit me

they always cheer me up

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-01-22T14:57:00

2006-01-22T20:00:11Z

So, i have been told that I have an aggresive personalilty...

I almost fought some people last night at Dave's house and there are some people who are on my shit list because they lie.

People really think I am a bitch and i am, but only to those who deserve it, I am actually a very nice person, until you piss me off.

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-01-12T20:34:00

2006-01-13T01:35:01Z

I finally took a 3 hour nap today after 4 days of not sleeping.

im excited

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-01-10T17:23:00

2006-01-10T22:24:53Z

I havent slept in days
I feel sick

I finally understand what happend over the summer

I was doing so good, 5 months, and now i ruined it coz i was that upset

::edit::
I dont even think we are friends right now
I try to do the right think and i end up in tears

fuck.

eyes__wide_shut @ 2006-01-05T22:11:00

2006-01-06T03:13:15Z

they were right, I do keep a shell up and I do not let anyone past it any more

nobody knows who I truly am and what goes on in my life

I honestly dont think they could handle the truth about it...

oh yeah I quit my job today

eyes__wide_shut @ 2005-12-29T02:47:00

2005-12-29T07:49:25Z

I tried to be strong and not to go back, but after 6 months I broke down.

It still has the same feeling, that makes everything else go away

eyes__wide_shut @ 2005-12-27T16:48:00

2005-12-27T21:49:24Z

despite how cold hearted I am,

I still care

eww i dont know whats been down there....or in your mouth!

2005-12-14T03:20:30Z

Tonight was alot of fun
to my lover ;) ;)
haha
to Auntie p-man pholman eww that quater was nasty!
this weekend and next week are going to be so much fun

Lauren- Cananda next week sometime?

eyes__wide_shut @ 2005-11-30T15:08:00

2005-11-30T20:11:44Z

I dont know what has been going on lately...everything is just going to hell.
Im scared about next week, im scared the worst will happen and my life will completely fall apart.
I wish someone went through the same things as I did, so I can talk to them and try to make some sense of what is going on right now...

When I dont think about it im fine, but then it hits me and hits me hard.

This is what its suppossed to be like when you are 17, broke and looking to have fun!

2005-11-24T20:21:07Z

This was one of the best nights I have had where I wasnt drunk or high!

Yesterday I went to get thai food with Kt, Erica and Courtney.
Went to Kt's and she made us coffee.
Then I went back to Erica's house and we found enough change to go to the coinstar machine and buy hair dye.
Erica did her hair and I put a little strip of blode in mine, but I have to re-do it tomorrow because it isnt dark enough.

Then Erica, Kt and I went to Lakeside and visited Lauren
we saw Jon...ewww
and then we went to eat at Panera and then Jon came to eat with us and let me tell you it was disgusting.
Then we left and I dropped Erica off at Nate's house and Kt and I went over to Brain's house and then went to see Logan at work
Kt got to drive my car from Brain's house to Tubby's and I almost had a heart attack!
Then Lauren called me and I dropped Kt off at her car so she could go hang out with Logan.

Then I went to St. Andrew's with Lauren and on the way there we get lost
went the wrong way on a one way street, a couple times
I had to call Brain to get directions from some road to east Congress
then we finally get there and Lauren parks in an alley, coz we didnt want to pay for parking
when we get to the door we find out that tickets were 15 each and I only had 25
so when the lady who was checking tickets turned her back we ran past her
then we came up with this genious plan to get something to drink, but that didnt work out coz we lost the guy who tried talking to us,
so one of Cole's freinds got us a a beer each.
The band was really good, it was Naitves of the new Dawn or something

When I got home I called Brain and talked to him for an hour or something and it was just the perfect end to a great day.

Lauren we need to do that more and find more people to come!

And we give it all away, just to have someone to go home to.

2005-11-21T23:03:41Z

We lost on friday...basketball is officially over for me. Its really sad, Im not playing any other sports and I always hoped to play in college, but because of all my health problems i cant...

I got about 3 inches cut off my hair today and it looks good, but I have to get used to having short hair again and I now have bangs.

Everything is going to change in a few weeks, my life, my friends and I, everything that i grew up knowing is going to change, its the scariest thing that Im ever going to do. right now I just want to spend as much time with them as possible, but its always so damn difficult...I guess just looking back i realize that I never had time to just be a kid, I have always hasd to grow up faster than everyone else and know I just wish I could go back and do the things i never got to do and do them with people i care about. I have let alot of good friends go in my life and I dont want that to happen now, not when I as great of friends as I do. I guess im finally starting to realize that once again I have to grow sooner than I should...

This is my December
This is my snow covered home
This is my December
this is me alone
And I
just wish that i didnt feel like there was something I missed

To all my friends who think they care...

2005-11-16T20:13:21Z

It all just feels a little fake...Now everyone is so worried about me and what I do, but no one cared over the summer or all this school year, or even when I was drunk. I know my friends could be worried, but when you start telling what to do, that comes off as acting like my parent and i do not need someone else trying to do that because i already have 2 shitty parents.

Did any of stop and wonder why I do this, or think that maybe there is something more to the reason of why I want to do it or why i did do it? No, so stop acting like this when you dont even know the reasons why I did it or want to start again.

eyes__wide_shut @ 2005-11-13T21:04:00

2005-11-14T02:07:42Z

This weekend I went to Aquinas to visit Kelsey with Steph, MJ, and Shannon. Then we went down to Western for Central Western weekend, there were a few good highlights from the weekend like beer pong and flip cup, oh and spending time with some really cool people, in a traffic jam.lol.

This weekend was just what I needed.